Do you have those times where emotionally you're hurting so much that your body physically hurts?
That's how the last few weeks have been. My feelings and emotions feel so broken and torn, that my body is starting to get really sick. I haven't slept much in probably two weeks and it finally caught up to me! My body has been so strong and doing everything it needs to do, which is a miracle, but it's so tired and just wants to rest.
If you know me, I am usually high energy most of the time, but right now, I would sleep all day if I could! Sometimes I just want to escape and not exist anymore because everything hurts.
What do you all do when you feel like this? Do you embrace it and sit in it? Do you find a way to escape from it?
In a different circumstance, where I didn't have kids, I would probably lay in bed and binge watch hallmark (because it predictable-- no surprises!) and eat so much chocolate ice cream, pizza, pasta...everything that makes my body feel sick!
But today, I still get to be a mom and mask the hurt and try to be present to take care of my kids. And I get to do it again, day in and day out, until they have visitation again in March.
Luckily, this is just a feeling and it won't last forever. It's only a small moment, and the beauty of this moment is that it reminds me that I am alive and I feel so many different things besides joy.
For anyone who feels like this, you are not alone and it will be okay.
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